In a strange way, the last few days were an example of something that is a possible answer for question #29 of the RA Challenge, i.e. “a moment that made me question whether I would continue fangirling for RA”. However, the fact that I am blogging today is proof of my decision. I have to thank you for your replies and your insistence that fun and distraction have a place even or especially when the world is faced with serious challenges. I do agree with that. It would be wrong to deny myself fun – it doesn’t bring back those who are lost, anyway. There is a need to celebrate life on the short journey that we all have. What else would be the point of art and entertainment? And in any case, I think the challenge question is more aimed at fandom-related moments rather than the wider political climate. As such, this question should be about an incident/development caused by the fandom or by RA, which made me rethink whether I still wanted to be a RA fan.
Searching for an answer to this question, I have been trying to remember moments when I was close to chucking in the towel. Something that made me feel really pissed off with RA. I know that I have had such “crisis situations” – there are extensive e-mail correspondences in my inbox where I am expressing my anger over something or the other. Thing is, I neither like perpetuating negativity, banging on about my own frustrations and potentially ruining other fans’ enjoyment of the experience, nor do I actually think that what RA says or does has that much influence on my decision to fangirl over him. Sure, I am critical of some of his interviewer choices, I really did not like his statements in context with Cybersmile, and I find his approach to privacy and social media positively frustrating. But I accept and acknowledge that he has no obligation to behave according to my expectations. Whether I consider him my favourite actor and fangirl over him, is my own choice alone. And as long as he churns out good work and comes across as a decent person in interviews, I don’t think he can put me off in the long-term. Not even if he derps.
I am much more likely to be put off fangirling by incidents caused within the fandom. There was one such moment, when a group of people took their protective feelings for RA too far, with tangible consequences in RL. It didn’t put me off RA as such, but it made me question whether I was comfortable being part of a fandom where such behaviour is possible. I am still here, so the point is, that the bad is balanced out by the good.
So there. No real deal breakers yet. But never say never…