Welcome to Guylty.net in 2019! How are we all? It’s already a few days into the new year but somehow it feels still fresh – yet also routine. How come? It’s an awkward short working week this week, I guess – awkward but welcome, of course. Over here, we took my mum to the airport for a tearful and early good-bye on Tuesday morning. What followed was a mixed day with some bad news (the burning pain in my left leg is probably due to varicose veins), some good (the veins in my right leg are perfect). Work has not yet fully started again – at least I haven’t had much to do yet.
But I don’t want the new year to start with lethargy. It’s hard enough staying motivated in my
currently non-existent worklife, and I also suspect that I am on the cusp of dealing with my usual winter depression. I’ve been feeling quite down and tired lately, and although I should be pleased with six weeks off the nicotine at this stage, I am still hankering after cigarettes. I think of them when I get up in the morning, and I experience flash memories of smoking all through the day, especially in those moments when my former routine relied on cigarettes – after meals, just before meals when I get hungry but it isn’t quite time yet, while waiting for something to happen etc. etc. This is exacerbated by the fact that I now really need to stop replacing nicotine with food. Since quitting I have gained 7 kilos. Which in turn is a blow to my motivation. It feels as if I can’t do anything without replacing one addiction with another. To say that is frustrating, is an understatement. I already took drastic measures today. New haircut – new beginning? I wish it were as easy as that.
So, the upshot is that I need some distraction. And that is where the whole Re-watch thing comes in. Way back in October I brought the idea up for the first time, and there seemed to be some interest in following through with it. Now, I know from personal experience that it will take days if not weeks to take a democratic decision and then organise everything. So rather than doing that – and delaying the whole idea even further, I’d rather just start immediately. Hence this is the deal: I suggest re-watching one of Richard’s finest performances ever – as Francis Dolarhyde in Hannibal. Sorry, I know that this is a show that many people have problems with. But I have my reasons why I want to watch it again. (And it’s not just the tattoo 😉.)
Even back in 2015 when Hannibal aired, I was absolutely blown away by Armitage’s performance, despite my reservations about the show as a whole. But Dolarhyde was a fantastic opportunity for RA to show what he can really do – in terms of his beloved physical acting both as the grandiose dragon as well as the tortured and flawed human, in terms of voice acting a cleft-palate man, and in terms of conveying emotions with a constant frown. Boy, he was truly scary in the role – yet managed to make us look beyond our rightful disgust and terror and find much sympathy for that pitiful creature. I’d love to see whether I am still so impressed.
So, anyone who is interested in joining the re-watch is welcome to do so. I am going to watch the fangirl cut, only, btw – I really can’t bear all the other Hannibal scenes, so I am concentrating on Richard’s scenes as Dolly only. I won’t have any time to do it this weekend, but will start next week. Afaik the segments won’t be much more than 20 minutes per episode if you add them up, so could easily be done within a couple of days. Right, but just in case you aren’t yet on board, here’s a bit of incentive…
Good things are waiting for you… lots of interesting things to discover.
Happy new year, everyone!