Mr Guylty is doing the cooking today and I am quickly coming on now with nothing much to say. I was busy all day.
I have to diagnose that I am a somewhat obsessive personality. When I start something, I totally get into it. Rather than just leave it at just *one* RAPS this morning, I went on and started five others. Ridiculous really.
Speaking of “obsessive” – maybe because I am currently watching Outlander (half way through season 2 at this stage – yes, I know I am way late), somehow Sam Heughan’s desperate Twitter post made it on my screen today. Now, no worries, this is not turning into “JamiePleasure” any time soon, but his post gave me pause. It’s somewhat mysterious and vague, yet it seems obvious that he is speaking up against some individuals who have been stalking as well as bullying him. Since I am not a member of that fandom, I don’t know what exactly he is alluding to. But the story kind of makes me reflect a little bit on my own fandom. How much criticism is too much? Where does fandom fun stop and bullying start? Are pithy remarks verging on libel and slander? Are throw-away quips about “tighty briefs” overstepping the mark? Is the content between the lines actually printed bold?
This introspection happens at regular intervals – wondering whether my modus of fangirling has changed, has intensified, has lessened – or has veered into unhealthy obsession. (See above?) I actually think the level of fangirling has been mainly the same for the last year and a half. Whether it is at an unhealthily obsessive level, I can’t very well determine from within. I don’t really think so – but isn’t that what all obsessive people say??? I love his work, I like to support him by a) seeing the things he is in, b) discussing his work online, and c) creating a fun place online where others can join me in following his career. Occasionally he fails to act the way I expected him to, and I get pissed off 😂. The fault there lies with me – not with him – but I don’t believe he should be considered above criticism. If anything, it’s the regular frustration with that unpredictable bloke, that keeps the obsession in check. 😓
Being a fan is great. There is so much joy in following an actor’s career over several years, closely, and with growing expertise. It’s fun to share that with other fans, and build friendships on our common interest. But if the fun ever goes out of it and it becomes a chore or is nothing more than a continuous stream of criticism, then I will know I have to stop it. For now, the fun continues…